Just a short note to introduce two hearts and two souls soon to completely become one "SOUL"
I would like to dedicate this first article to my three children Jesse, Amy & Bryce in the belief they will also find unconditional love. I love you all with an unconditional love that can not be measured....
I am the second half of two souls, my Sweetheart and author of this book is the other.
For about twenty-five years now we have known our two souls were connected, even though our physical bodies were not until recently. I compare the reuniting of our love to the very first mountain climbed by my friend Susan and myself. It took about three hours to climb this mountain (which ironically is named Heart Mountain) in the photo, and believe me that was not easy " I am very scared of heights". With the understanding and confidence of my girlfriend Susan, along with a whole lot of patience "I DID IT". Boy what an exhilarating feeling, at that time I could have climbed ten more. Our love has many paths just like Heart Mountain and it is up to us to choose the paths we take. Our love has been tested much in the same manner. We both had many paths to choose from over the years, some we chose with confidence others from fear and lack of love. Both of us have been through a marriage and other relationships, none of which we regret because through these tests our hearts have grown stronger. There was always something not quit there, kind of like a sundae without the topping. While we gave our hearts to others neither gave our souls, because deep inside we knew they belonged together. The uniting of two hearts sometimes can seen easy, but the uniting of our souls is a mountain full of fears and takes much the same steps it took me to climb Heart Mountain.
First I needed a little encouragement and love, then the trust to believe in it. Next was the need to believe in and love myself, so I could understand what tools were needed for each step we were going to take in order to reach the top. There were quit a few times while climbing this mountain I needed to take a rest, and on some occasions my fear of the climb would return. At that time I reached into my mind, heart, and soul. That is where I found the trust needed to " almost " complete the climb.
I say almost because on the last leg of the climb my belief in conquering my fears wasn't quit strong enough.
This is were the difference ends with the Heart Mountain and what I refer too as "OUR MOUNTAIN". I believe we will achieve the kind of love and trust needed to conquer the fears and unite our souls forever as one. The kind written about in this very unique Book About Love?.
All My Heart
Roberta Petersen
My last article referred to Our Mountain (my sweetie and I) and the many paths on the way up, also that it is our choice to choose the paths we take. There was one small entity forgot about at the time until recently, this subject came to mind because of the familiar path I came close to choosing.
Sometimes on the way up it may seem like were both on the same path and we are at most points, but there will be some occasions where the path splits and out of fear of losing control you may end up on separate paths. It may also be because we feel there is more to learn from the left instead of the right. Or maybe you feel the other has chosen a path of his or her own so your feeling is what the heck so will I. These are very common survival instincts inside each of us. It can also be a very destructive survival depending on your choices. I have learned that we need to be very careful when we choose different paths. It's not necessarily wrong but without each other's understanding as to why, it's confusing and many times misread by each other.
When Klaus and I came together after many years we were so full of life, energy and the need to learn or teach each other all the things we experienced and studied, it began with a lot of fun and excitement on both sides (boy we jumped in full speed). Along the way we both lost some of that energy. We were still talking, discovering and giving each other love, but little pieces of ourselves were disappearing and we weren't even noticing it much at the time. This too is very common in most relationships. Klaus has spent many years studying and living the things he writes about in his books, and I on the other hand only thought and dreamt about these things. The kind of love we have to me was only possible in Romeo & Juliet. Deep inside I believed two souls and hearts could unite this way, but I didn't grasp it to the point where it would happen to me in my lifetime.
So along that path we were taking together I built an emotional escape (which by the way was an old habit built up over the years) just in case I could not catch up to the point Klaus was at
(I didn't want to disappoint him). This is where my mistake lies and I feel many others, due to our built up instincts and reactions over the years. I let that escape become a larger part of me then intended to the point I almost lost myself, what I dreamt about and am striving towards now with my sweetheart. I felt in control at first and along the way it was really taking control of me, and the energy I had. Due to the disappointment in myself at feeling behind I almost forgot how to communicate these feelings to my other Soul (my sweetie) this was causing us to fall off our mountain.
It's okay to stub your toe once in a while or step off the pathway, when we hide behind these feelings it closes our hearts and the path to our souls. I was giving my energy and pieces of my soul to my escape which was way less important, and Klaus was extending his energy to hang onto what we had created together (not a fair exchange), and now were both gathering it back up. This means even more trust and communication is needed which will take a little longer this time, but I know it will build even a stronger bond between us. I've learnt that it is okay to feel any emotion I have whether it be fear, love, need etc as long as I keep my heart open and communicate this to my sweetie. Then if he returns the communication with understanding there is no need to jump off our mountain and we can return to following the same pathway.
Klaus was going to take the relationship parts off the Internet site because he felt he/we didn't know enough about relationships. My answer was that there is no where in here it states that we have it down pat or perfect, and by expressing our stumbling blocks along with the accomplishments we've both made it can only relay the strength in Uniting our souls and hearts. Like I said in the previous issue only a little differently...
It sometimes can seem easy to unite two hearts, but the real work is uniting the two hearts and two souls to become one. That can seem like a tall mountain to climb, but it is worth it and I am finding it very rewarding.
One last important point from this long-winded person; Never lose the fun, excitement or romance. If you need to sit back and relax from the deep thinking for awhile " DO IT " that's okay too. In fact it is highly recommended. Light a few candles, put on some music and cut a hole in your rug from those dancing shoes. Or just fall back into each other's arms and feel your heart beating together. Doesn't that sound wonderful " it is ". Then you can go back later with much clearer minds and hearts.
Roberta Petersen
If time and talent were of no concern...what would life look like?
Peaceful and full of life
I would be sitting by the ocean, watching the sunrise
Going to school for what I want, not what would get me further in life
I would look foreword to mornings, because there would be no pressure from others
Just what I think and believe would matter, this of course would include my sweetheart
My dreams would be achievable, instead of just dreams
Anger would be okay without guilt from within
The past would have no effect only what's today
The simple things in life would be accepted like I accept them
Others would not judge
I myself and others would see me and themselves from within
Not from what we surround ourselves with
Love would be abundant
Because
There would be nothing to measure or judge
There would be only what is within, our own
minds
hearts
and
souls
Roberta Joehle
Too Much Thinking
Responsibility is a large subject and I have done alot of thinking on it lately. There are probably several more articles that could be written from many different angles (I am sure there will be at least one more from me).
At the moment though one simple thing comes to my mind.... Too Much Thinking... and how it confuses my actions and leads me many times to choose the wrong paths. My sweetheart has said these words to me on several occasions "Your thinking too much". You see, over the past months I have written poetry a couple of articles and even painted a picture on the drum Klaus made for me. These may seem like little things, but I didn't even know until recently; these talents lay inside of me. If someone would have told me I would be doing any of them the laughter would have reached quit a distance. Some I have struggled with others came easy, klaus suggested I look at the things that were created when I was playing "relaxed" and compare them with the ones created through struggling. I would like to thank him for that suggestion. I found the ones created from playing were quit beautiful and had calming energy flowing from them. The ones created well struggling never seem quit right and I want to always change them (funny that is how I feel inside at moments). I have been trying to use what I call the playing attitude in my decision making lately. When I let my thoughts flow easily into my life, the paths I choose are the ones that bring myself and the people I care about much more happiness. I have also found my dreams are not only dreams anymore, they are becoming a part of my reality.
This poem came to me during a bit of a rough time and served as a reminder of how much my thoughts control the paths I end up walking.
Roberta Joehle
A thought positive
or
negative
A feeling wanted
or
unwanted
May be fed by others but
Can only be created through you
Focus on those thoughts
and they will soon become your reality...
Face them without fear
Believe in what you know inside yourself
And those thoughts, feelings
Will pass with the softness of a feather
Untouched and Uncaptured
Your thoughts and beliefs from the heart is all that will be left...
Leaving your heart open
Only
To the positive
Thoughts and Feelings
Roberta Joehle